The Self-denial Realist

In all my years from being an athlete to being the organizer for fashion shows & amidst holding 3 jobs at the same time, I was hailed as the "wonderwoman" in the eyes of friends.

However, that was the past, I guess age has really caught up with me that I can really say that I no longer can withstand the amount of work on my shoulders. Its time that I have to let my body has its well-deserved rest which had been delayed for the longest time ever.

Its the recent saga of having kidney infection that landed me in the hospital, that sets me thinking that all these years of hard work & effort didn't really paid off as what I had expected. Sadly to say, I have to be woken up from my self-denial state of mentality in such an unwanted & dangerous situation to realise that being constantly pushing myself too hard is actually killing me.

The fact that I "used to" love my job & the adrenaline that drives me to do better didn't help much either. I admit I was very much ambitious & constantly uncontented, but who isn't when one wants to have the luxury to retire early & enjoy life?!

Well, at least now I have learned to take things slowly & once in a while "heck, I just want to relax, that can wait.."

BleSSing oR TortuRe?

23rd November marks the 1st day of my 2 weeks ordeal that I have to endure...
Coz I am down with Chickenpox.
Come to think of it, years back when I was still a teenager, I used to tell myself how lucky I was to not been plagued by the virus which causes horror stories of having ugly marks on your face and body and the uncontrollable itch...

Now, with my hectic work schedule and my studies all have to put on hold, I feared for the inconvenience more than anything else.. and the unforeseen financial market..

Pple envied that I can have a break & rest.. but seriously in such uncertain times, I rather not.

Thus all in all, I will rather have it when I was younger, at least I won't have any recollection of the whole ordeal...

Nice...

The Bass(ics) of Life

Kinda excited to be in the vibes of the legendary bass players ever lived..

Victor Wooten wait for me!

Way back into Love...

The path back to Love is ever so clear
With you I will never fear
Coz the light beyond the darkest shadows
seems to shine as the river of Love flows


From Crane to Ben